shifimafadafa

2005-05-16T09:38:00.000+08:00

please.
don't do this to me.

=D

2005-05-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

hahahhahaa.
today's a good day!
was sent down to kovan's outlet to work cos they're shorthanded.
was damn pissed at first for the last minute thingie...
but all changed once i stepped into the shop.
the man there was damn friendly lah.
we talk talk talk. i stone stone stone.
slack! hardly any customers!
sales was like below hundred. heh?!
and my mat did his magic and appeared in front of my face. hehee... =)
had tacobells after sooo longg... nice!
so the rest of the day was spent talking to the nice uncle.
it was a blessing in disguise lah.
goin there made me not wanna go back to J8 sia.
no stress. fooh.
but its back there tmr! lalalla.. one more day without her! yay!
2 more weeks.
i'm so gonna miss rach, cheryl, karen n corrine.
fun ppl they are. =)
yayyay goin out with kakak soon!
23rd with besties!
27th with dearies!
29th with cckpeeps!
cant wait!

i love you*. =)
i love all of youuu. =D

btw. 6230i simply rocks! hahha. kinda lagging tho. hrmp.

2005-05-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

finally! my long awaited off day! wheeeee!
and i have to give tuition first thing later at 9am. garghh.
teaching is so not my thing, really.
and then off to take my mandarin course certificate and then.. =)

seriously, i like everyone at work except her.
i clicked really well with this new trainee optician... maybe that's cos she's like just a year older than me...
2 other colleagues really friendly to me lah.. another 2 erm.. just okay lah...
but she.. i guess the dislike is mutual. heh. whatever.
just too bad that she has to be the one to grade me.
she'll be away away away!
i wont see her til friday... wakaakkakaa~

my days' been filled with smiles, thanks to you. :)

results out.

2005-05-05T09:07:00.000+08:00

NAME NURUL SHIMADA BINTE J ABDULNASIR
STUDENT ID 0312556
COURSE DIPLOMA IN OPTOMETRY
STAGE 2B

MODULE CODE // MODULE // GRADE
CP3040 // CONTACT LENS COMPLICATIONS // B
CP3015 // CLINICAL OPTOMETRY 2 // D
CP3017 // BINOCULAR VISION // D+
CP3039 // CONTACT LENS FITTING // D+
MS2503 // BASIC STATISTICS // D+

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ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE

blurgh.

sooooooooo bododododo u knowwww!!!!!
sighhhhhhh.
fucking binocular vision. study so hard still get D+ only?
=(

irony.

2005-05-04T09:44:00.000+08:00

the irony of it all.
i hate the son so much for being the sick jerk he is, but i love his mom just thru that short meeting with her yesterday.
looking at her, i see a woman with admirable strength.
the words that she said touched my heart greatly and i couldnt hold back my tears.
it's amazing how a stranger, what's more a mother to someone i detest, made such an impact on me.
i'm surprised how she could open up to us like that.
and i could see tears in her eyes, which she managed to prevent from running down...
the strength of a woman.

sam...
make her your motivation to move on and not look back.
she can do it. so can you dear.
thanks for asking me along yesterday.
we'll visit her again someday yea.

after that he-who-likes-to-annoy-me-with-pigs came to fetch us.
heee.. sorry laa make you susah2 find that unknown place...
parted with sam who went to chged her number and we went to catch xXx.
show's nobbaddd.. i like.
lalalalaala~ the rest of the day i shall not elaborate.
why? bcos i have your* superduper malas syndrome.

byeeeeeeeeee. off to town later meeting runz.

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here......

fucked up work day.

2005-05-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

the day started out good cos i found out she wasnt workin again. but when evening comes things went haywire lah. or rather, my head was the one that went haywire... don't know what was i thinking. i keep making stupid mistakes here and there, thus making my colleague's job difficult at the end of the day. everyone was tired cos there were so many customers today and i just had to make things worse lah. luckily she wasnt around otherwise there goes my head. if they tell on me mati lah. =/ i feel so insulted when someone gave a remark.. "u optom student u dunno ah?" heh. fine. i deserve it lah. sigh. i give myself til i finish year 3. if by then i'm still a lousy optom i'll find another line alright? tsk.

dunno what else to update lah.....
no mood lahh.....
but looking forward to tmr tho......
hmmm......

oh and btw. just in case u wonder why i had that ultrasound scan two years back, it definitely wasn't because i was pregnant ok? thank you very much. hahahahha.

should i buy 6230i first or creative mp3 player first?
arghhhhh.

second MC

2005-05-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

so today's the second time in 2 weeks that i'm on MC from attachment.
am really sick this time round.
the pain gets unbearable sometimes but doctor told me i can ignore it. heh?
whatever doctor.
and the clinic gave me my ultrasound scan results just now... after 2 years?!
goodness.
baahhh. tmr's gonna be work again. and off the next day! yay! =D

---

this song is dedicated to samsiah kushen.

Take a minute, girl, come sit down
And tell us what's been happening
In your face I can see the pain
Don't you try to convince us that you're happy
We've seen this all before
Brother's takin' advantage of the passion
Because we've come too far for you to feel alone
You don't let him walk over your heart, I'm telling you
Girl, I can tell you've been cryin'
And you're needin' somebody to talk to
Girl, I can tell he's been lyin'
And pretendin' that he's faithful and he loves you
Girl, you don't have to be hidin'
Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we're your girls
And don't you know that we love you...

we'll always be there for you sis.
please keep fighting.
for yourself. for us. ok?

life's good. =)

2005-05-01T03:59:00.000+08:00

i feel sick.
bad throat. cold. feel funny.
i want an MC today!
dont mind the ranting of a spoilt brat yah.
but i really feel sick. =(
why else would i be awake at this time.... i need sleep u know!!!

life took a turn on 29th April 2005.
if i could use only one word to describe it: contentment.
and deep inside i'm really bersyukur God gave me the chance...
and of cos, you* did too.
thank you* for being so accepting.
and thank you loved ones for being there to share this "BIG news" (as kakak put it). lol.
thanks angel, thanks besties, thanks buddy, thanks dearies, thanks aan and of cos thanks my own lil sis.
now it's just a step at a time. i'm still crawling remember?

and youuuuuu.....
really sorry to make u wait so long @ that boring mall yaaa...
i just had to finish work late lah yesterday... dumb customers...
thanks for the company home... eventho i know you're v tired n.. ahemz.. the fact that we're poles apart.. ;p

oh oh oh!
i managed to sell my first pair of specs!!! wheeehaaaA!
actually it was a bad day at work before that last customer of mine came n make me feel satisfied. uh ok that doesnt sound right.. haha..
anyway yaa.... so many ppl coming in to enquire about the new promotion... titanium progessive thingie that nanyang offered... i have NO CLUE what to say to them lah.. so i referred all away.. ahaha.. i feel so useless can? i even forget the advantages of titanium!!
and i dispensed this specs to this lady.. goodness.. everyone was busy and i had a hard time adjusting the frame for fear of breakin it... i had to sneakk to ask my colleagues for help here n there..
i got over one weekend. two more to go.
there just hv to be an extra hol for ppl to attack the shop rite. haizzz.

CONGRATULATIONS NADDIE for the entry to NUS.
i'm so proud and happy for you!

thanks stffy for gettin me the job! =)

ok now i'm missing my besties and my dearies all over again.
besties + kakak : pls pls pls pls make the swensens outing happen.
dearies: cant wait for 27 may! yes mummy i want that bday hug eventho it's gonna be longggg due.. hehe.. oh how i miss school =(

bro: i want my long awaited rhumba quick. but i hvnt got time to go town to ur place. boo. soon soon! 5th maybe. hope u workin.. =)
aan: i hope we can hv that lunch! dinner. anything.
hedz: come back quick.
runni: when are u free?
izz: visit me quick.
malihha: yes we'll meet up again.. but i hv no life now so i dunno when.. will do will do ok?

bday!!

2005-04-28T10:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFEEQ! (eventho he's not gonna read this ever)

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY FARHAN!

our birthdays are one after the other. ok that's a redundant note.
but i like it so much. haha..

birthday blues.

2005-04-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

spent early noon with dearest abang...
was a last minute decision to catch a movie...
think he pity his sister still on the bed feelin so sian at 11am on her bday... haha!
so we caught Infection. DO NOT watch it i tell you.
poor story line. plain stupid.
but the horror scenes are shocking lah.
damn shiok cos we had the whole theatre to ourselves so i screamed alot and tugged bro's shirt alot too.
he accompanied me to town.. walked abit here n there.. n *poof* he went off for his date.
while i waited for naddie n sam.
thanks to them both for making me laugh alot and keep my mind off somethings.
went to eat n walked around as usual. camera-whored too. and laughed somemore. hahhahaa.
for someone who didnt hv the mood for the day, i was contented enough.
thanks dearies. thanks brother.
thanks everyone for your smses & calls.
means alot to me. really. :)
thank you shafa for the cookies n brownies.
thanks naddie for the cheesecake.
thanks aan for the song you sang for me.
*i love allll of youuuu manymany*

2005-04-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

to all who remembered and all who had msged,
THANK YOU.
from the bottom of my <3.

to you: thank you too. heh.

2005-04-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

sad.

muacks to fam!

2005-04-24T00:25:00.001+08:00

shoutout of thanks to my family for the lunch buffet @ pan pacific celebrating my maklong's belated bday and my advance. mmuuacckkss!

after we left jb abang sent me down to esplanade where i met naddie sam shafa n mai. missed them. we're supposed to go our separate ways soon after, but we end up sitting arnd @ bk raffles. brief session but as usual, i had fun. nadziii nissaa mane entah korang!

and nana? if you're reading this, please get back to me. why did u stop bloggin suddenly? miss you tonnes.

lallalaa~ discussed with abang about holding a bbq on wed night and he agreed to help me with it... problem is, who will come?? i mean.. it's a school/working day... and if i were to make it happen it'll be in pasir ris. and my friends are mostly westsiders. please don't tell me to make it on a weekend instead... cos if i could i would... but i'm working on the weekends...
so you think i should just dump the idea? yes?
i think so too.
so much for wanting a happy gathering. =( oh wells.

you know what?
big brother's in like with tonghua too. lol*

2005-04-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

buddy treated me to swensen's for lunch... :)
it was great... yummy food... icecreams... my iced mocha and all...
thanks buddy for the great time today.
really appreciate it, alot.
lookin pretty in that lipstick huh? ;P
ppl, tune in to channel 8 for say cheez soon... lol~ sorry budddy.. ;)

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how i wish everything will be nicely in place.
but that is not to be.
i hope i won't fall just to get myself injured.

i miss u.

2005-04-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

today was a happier day at work.
finally i was visible, somehow.
we were being mean thinking of ways and means to get back to that customer.
but of cos, we didnt do anything to her lah.
after my manager left, we went crazy.
blasted tonghua on the cd player and all of us sang.
one of my colleague so feeling that another colleague recorded a video of her singing in his phone.
haha luckily noone was around.
engaged in more conversations with them so things are alright now.
thank God.

now that i got that off day next wed, i don't know what to do.
most of the girls are working anyway.
should have booked a pit earlier.
now last minute i dont think anything will work out.
whatever.

and today, i missed you*.

happy :)

2005-04-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

hellooooooo!!!!!!
anyone missed me while i was away?!! hahaha! buay paiseh huh. ;)
was tired the past two days cos of work.
yeahhhhhh the damned attachment.

attachment havent been too good so far.
it's like i'm in my own world and they in theirs, simply because in 85% of their conversations, i could only hear them utter words which i can try to figure out here and there. get what i mean?
morning til early noon is the suckiest period of all.
hardly any customers, and NOTHING to do!!!!!!
i feel so uneasy just standing there doing nothing.. who wouldnt right! it's MY grades i'm talking about here!
my colleague still can say, " just take a seat first lah... nothing to do just look at ceiling lor..."
erm right. i really won't mind if they make me work like a dog or something cos doing nothing can kill me!
so far most of what i do is just sales.
have no confidence to do frame truing yet cos it's so risky... i'm so afraid of breaking their glasses...
and i forgot about doing refraction. haix. i must have given the manager a very bad impression huh.
and my manager happened to be my liason's officer ex coursemate lah, and she's the only optometrist there.
all of them there so slack... when they have nothing to do, they'll be surfing friendster, blogging or playing online games. too bad for me i only have my dearest hp + some ppl i disturbed via sms for company.

hmmm today's highlights.
haha as i had whined to some poor souls early noon today, i was like invisible lah. they wont talk to me unless there's something to do. which is hardly.
that aside, something biggg happened in the evening lah.
there's this ridiculously unreasonable customer who called on monday to complain about her contact lenses so she came by today to give us a piece of her mind. no, many pieces in fact. heh.
i'll save the details cos it's a long story.. haha..
everyone was sooo sian after that.. and then i looked outside and saw you!!!
teehee~ scared to ask if i could go out a while since i had my break not too long ago..
but i asked a colleague anyway and she allowed so yarh.
thanks for dropping by... yr visit really made my day... :)
oh.. while that crazy woman was scolding my manager, i was stoning for sometime and something, or rather someone, caught my eye...
it was buddy's colleague lah.. this butch... and beside her was this lady.. i was like chehh.. then at second look the lady looked familiar.. and the rumour buddy told me came flashing back.. no biggie lah.. they walked passed the shop... but they had to appear again! this time from vertically opposite.. my gaze was following them lah.. until this point of time when they held hands... i was shocked!! the lady's married with a child and she's having an affair with her...?!! at that time the crazy customer's words were still ringing into my ears lah so didnt really react to what i saw..
i had a 3-in-1 shock seh today! ok one wasn't a shock but a surprise rather.. hee..
i really hope tmr will be a better day.
hope i won't be invisible again... haix...

eh new friend! i miss having those long conversations with you lah! all your fault lah.. sleeeep je tau! anyway i wanna see your new hair. meet up one day ait! and camera whore! :)

buddy's gonna celebrate my bday in advance this fri... yay! cant wait to meet u buddy!

i have very little free time and so many ppl to meet.

hedz? i'll meet u aft u come back from hols? cos im not free durin off days this week, and the next u are going off already.. so the third week's off days i'll go out with u ok? hopefully runz can make it as well...

izz!!!!!!!!!! drop by junction 8 one day and have lunch with me???!!

my dopt dearies!!! i miss all of u so much!! sobs. i guess our off days clash! mummy and yanah, i regret so much not joinin the batam itp. =(

angel+my crez girls, i miss you all manymany. it's so hard to get a date on which everyone's free. when's next gathering i wonder? boo.

last but definitely not the least, thank you*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

tired!!

2005-04-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

urhh damn tired.
supposed to be resting at home preparing for tmr's start of attachment, but noo.. i had to go down to town to change the shoes i bought yesterday which was bit too small for comfort.
luckily bro agreed to send me there...
went to taka's outlet but since the size i wanted wasnt available, i asked for another design since the original one i got was too high for my height lah.
that too, doesnt have my size.
so i asked them to check heeren's outlet.
but the salesperson just had to make the mistake of giving the wrong model number to the other side, so it's back to: no size available.
and the person @ heeren was like apologizing profusely and called paragon for me.
so finally got it at paragon lah.
wasnt angry with them cos they're really nice people.
maybe i should apply for job there uh. yes yes i will next sem. :)

ok now i'm so worried about tmr.
i havent even complete the qns in itp logbook.
dunno what to expect.
what must i do?
must bring retinoscope n ophthalmoscope along?
doubt so right. think they'll only allow us do sales.
i'll just show up at 11am.
hope everything will be okay.

happy birthday shaikh.
feel so bad not goin to his party.
it's all last minute and tmr's attachment... everyone needs to rest i guess.
he must be very disappointed with us.
sorryy man.

I'M VERY TIRED!!!!!
off.

---

Amor no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong) ?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart

karma

2005-04-16T08:14:00.000+08:00

guess karma is happening all the time huh.
what goes around really is coming around.
i just have to accept it. ):
think i've shown you* enough of my retardedness.

no regrets.

2005-04-15T21:48:00.001+08:00

to my girls who are feeling low for some reason or another, **HUGSSS**
i'll always be here for you alright.
somehow... everyone's feeling low.

---

for the sake of Stephanie Tan Li Ching, i shall not be on hiatus. ;)

just got back from town and feelin really tired now.
first to lib accompany sam find books for her research, and then to nanyang opt to let them know i'll be attached there (they weren't even aware of the fact that i'll be attached there from monday onwards) and then went back to our beloved alma mater, chilled out with kakak in her tiny (and stuffy) class and finally head off to town in 111.
how we missed crescent so much. been eons since we last visited her.
and it was really nice to see kakak again... :)
went fep and naddie, with her cheerful sunflowers for us, met us there.
thanks to samsiah kushen for influencing me to splurge unnecessarily on food today.
first was lunch at swensens and then desert at gelare? talk about indulgence.
thanks too for wasting money with me shopping, makcik.
felt really good hanging out with them after so long. talked quite abit.
and sisters, thanks for your support.
i wouldnt have sent the msg without your encouragement.
*hearts*
and thanks to weiqi, junqi, steff, julie n yanah too for listening to my ermz.. nonsense about you-know-whats.
*love youuu all loads*

i dont regret telling you* all that.

hmm. wonder why my chest hurts when i breathe since this morning.
hmmm. i feel damn intimidated by the ppl at nanyang optical. they didnt even brief me about what i'm supposed to do and all? heh. whatever. and qi's lucky to get paid hourly rate! bahhh.
hmmmm. i think tts enuf for today's entry.

mr irritating

2005-04-15T07:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday had been a good catching up session with aan.
accompanied him redeem his HMV vouchers, went to eat and just walked and talked.
been a long time since we last did, yea bro?
thanks for your time and for listening to my whinings.
then waited for julie to finish work and went lib awhile and she went home and i went to mum.
had a 'quarrel' with my aunt yesterday cos of the planned outing which didnt work out for some reasons.
sigh. i felt so bad talking in that tone with her, furthermore it's her birthday.
eventho i apologized, i couldnt forgive myself. :(
will make it up to her someday.

my body clock had been messed up from all those mugging.
i'll be like sleeping at 5 and waking up at 10...
which is so unlike me during post exams when it's usually sleepin in til 1.. heh.

today's gonna be my date with sammie..
haix wish naddie could make it.. have lots to rant to u both. =/
and gonna go to my attachment company to hand in the intro letter personally cos i've been procastinating in mailing it so i guess i'll make my way there and intro myself and get all the details about dresscode and stuff. specs or contact lenses anyone? drop by nanyang optical. cheh. promoting already huh. i personally do not like that company for my own reasons. and monday is approaching fast.

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mr irritating, mr irritating, mr irritating...
do you even know who you are?
if you do remember, pls tag my board.
ok i'm nuts.
off.

2005-04-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

town with e girls was cool.. if only could stay out longer..
damn tuition had to get in the way.
WE WATCHED THE PACIFIER!! i highly recommend it!!
we sure had a good laugh just now! lol =D
wasnt complete without steff, mummy, stffy and ginette tho!
so.... 27th May, overnight at sentosa yes girls?
i'll miss you girls so much! cant hang out much this hols cos of attachment!! nvm we'll visit each other okay! and those goin Batam, all the more you should go popping by the rest of us in optical shops! please take care u all...

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and so it's back to thinkin, if i should continue walkin straight forward or otherwise.
it's obvious which is easier for me.
i know i shouldn't give up after goin thus far...
but..
haiz...
i also know chances won't come knocking twice.
let it slip once and it's gone forever.
but i also know there are people i shouldn't disappoint.
tell me what to do someone?

'i don't know what i should do now.... i don't know where i should go.....'
-perfect world

freedom.

2005-04-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

freedom. from exams that is.
am totally drained out from all those mugging.
but i definitely will miss those times, had been really fun.

and so new friend and i chilled @ town today.
mood was swinging and pms was bothering so yah i wasn't so crazy.
went to eat and talked talked talked and walked walked abit and caught 3 Iron...
interesting movie that was. really!
so new friend and i tried to imitate some moves.. well i succeeded that first time! lol~
was a crazy time out lah thanks to you.
but i guess i was too drained out to do or say much.
another session for camera whoring next ait new friend? ;)
sorry pics didnt turn out good today.

missed the chance to meet up with runz n munz just now.
damn lah had to go back early.
this sat ait, runz.. what say you, hedz?

tmr will be girls-day-out with dopt dearies.
cant wait. :)
and many many more plans ahead.
oh wait. monday's attachment. cowdung.
SPEAKING OF COWS!
WHAT'S WITH THOSE COLOURFUL WOODEN COWS ALL OVER SINGAPORE HUH?!!
freakingly amusing.
me and steff had a good laugh in the bus.

u know what?
i'll fall flat in front of this monitor if i am to stay a minute longer.
so so drained out.
so off i'll go.
goodnight, everyone.

denial

2005-04-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

the words 'in denial' are used ever so often nowadays, i wonder why?
and i happen to be one of those users of the words. heh.
for some reasons, i am in denial.
just what is that i'm feeling?
only time will tell.

contact lens complications in 13 hours.
i must at least get my B+. =D.
the last semestral exams.
which is bad. cos ICAs don't seem as important.
and when they don't seem important, we tend to be complacent. yes?

enough said.
gotta hit the notes for the last time.

before that,

steff: hope everythin will be in place for you soon enough. hate to see you hanging like that. whatever you do, i'll be behind you. **huggss**

kakak: hope your cat's okay. can't wait to catch up with you. will do really soon okay.

sammie: don't know whats up with you but soon enough we'll talk alright...

buddy: i miss you lar. see ya soon.

nana: i really really wanna see you. it's been too long. sigh.

izz, hedz, runz: cant wait to see you guys again! =D

basically right, i miss everyone. it's been so long since i hanged out with them.
cant wait for tmr!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. okay okay im off!

2005-04-11T02:37:00.000+08:00

freaked out!

2005-04-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

uh-HuH. it's like a must to blog everyday, there's always something to say.
hey that rhymes. hahaha.
and so my search for my dunks was a futile attempt.
went far east and the ones that i thought was nice wasn't so appealing anymore.
what i initially had in mind was the pink dunks but it was nowhere to be found except on passerbys' feet.
guess that one was some limited ed shoes and i was just too slow.
now i really dont know what to buy. i need new shoes badly. =(

mugging session last night was funny lah!
yeah we got things done, memorise and understood quite a bit, but me and steff would take ever so frequent breaks in between feeling pek-chek, due to some factors which is best not be mentioned. haha!
and some freaky thing happened too. shall not elaborate.
and steff n quek started freaking me out with their nonsense til i turned pale, or so he said.
not my fault kayy... things had been pretty disturbing for me since earlier!
so i decided to go further down towards the west line with them til the sky gets brighter...
hahahha poor quek had to get off the train with me and steff went ahead home.
and so he accompanied me on the platform until the sky was bright..
sweet ar my 'boyfriend'? lol~!
hoho! thanks quek! it was much appreciated. don't you guys dare freak me out on purpose again!!!

it makes me wonder... how you can stand such a kid.
maybe im misjudging again.

to you:
just to let you know that i missed talking to you.

so you stole my heart, ~~and left me a ransom letter.~~

emo.

2005-04-09T07:18:00.000+08:00

*yawns* just got back from airport mugging session.
i'm gonna miss mugging sessions soon enough since there'll be no more exams in year 3.
how time flies. in no time we'll all be graduating.
i know i'm thinkin too much but i can't help it.
i remembered dreading goin to school back in year 1.
was really in my own world under my shell... the only person i was close to was buddy...
and everyday i can't wait to leave school.
if only the beautiful friendships were forged earlier.....
but better late than never right?
i love the class and especially the girls, to bits and pieces.
shall cherish every moment i can have with them all.
hopefully the one year will pass by slowly.....
feeling damn emotional now dunno why.
think i'll go sleep now.
will continue my sentimental bits later.

lalallaa~

2005-04-08T11:21:00.000+08:00

wahahhaa.. supposed to be mugging @ subway again but figured that it'll be crowded during lunch hour and anyway i have to leave early today for tuition.. so yup.
staying home = can't study.
saving the energy for tonight's mugging session with steff & quek.
yesterday's session with julie was so unsuccessful!
i still could do this:

nike dunks, creative muvoslim, N7610, canon iXus40, that fossil watch, those clothes from esprit, etcetera...
am so gonna get all of them after attachment! =D
earning tak seberapa nak perasan......lol!
eh no.. i'll get my dunks this weekend.. and hopefully mama will get me either the 7610 or muvoslim.
materialistic aye?
no lahh... this is splurging once in a while only. yup =D

and so we ended up window shopping for clinic stuff next semester and julez got her bag.
i found all the clothes i needed, just need money to come rolling in before i can get them.
but then again, i needa work to get them. all the formal wear cost so much!
like a top for 49 and pants for 60+. damn.
need shoes and bag to go along too. =/

hmmm... should have met new friend yesterday......
was worried for nothing... haha...
complicated he is....

at this point of time, i still refuse to study.

mugging.

2005-04-06T02:39:00.000+08:00

deviating abit here...
thanks to qi n steff for giving me wake up calls at 2 just now...
it was soooooooooo difficult to wake up at such at ungodly hour...
but i managed... and thus rewarded myself with a prata... lol~

binocular vision is in like less than 12 hours...
and here i am so unready as usual...
read the past year qns and i go "hah? what's that..."... so imagine later...
i really wonder how and why did i take poly life for granted.
being in poly is like wow.. perfect lifestyle lah.. can work and play hard..
but nooooo.... i chose to playyyy more than i work.
and thus, the deteriorating results. shoot me now man.
but it's okayy.. no regrets. i hate to regret things which are done.
last minute mugging can be thrilling...
we're always goin 'oh shit shit haven't finish studying... how how how....'
and we eventually sit for the paper and after which we'll go 'i cannot answer this and that... should have studied man!'
it's pretty amusing sometimes.

and mugging this sem had been fun.
julie + subway.
steff + (-)menghong+ airport.
myself + home + notes + no sleep.
=D

ok i have no idea why am i feeling so happy when it's already almost 3 and i've yet to memorise like more than half of binocular vision.

late nite muggers.

2005-04-03T11:52:00.000+08:00

last night was spent mugging at the airport with steff and menghong.
i must say it wasnt too productive.
concentration span was short.
but it was definitely better than nothing at all. thks guys.
this weekend another session ait?
and next two days to be spent with psycho mummy. ;p

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2005-04-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

aHh.. finally we can breathe.
it's been a torturous week for DOPT peeps.
tests are all over and just 2 more papers to sit for...
AND THEN WE'LL BE IN YEAR 3.
guess everyone's dreading it uh.
with lecturers telling us straight in our faces that they'll be nasties and meanies in clinic next year.
knowing myself i'll probably break down under such pressure.

anyhows. today school was fun!
had a test which i didnt know how to do, like the whole 35 marks.
slides test was fun and funny. haha..
after which, we had our PTN gathering in FC 1.
loadsa pizzas! YUMMY!
the girls had at least 3... i stopped at 1 3/4 cos felt so bloated lah.

and new friend happen to be on his way to FC 1 on his last day of school.
like finally, got to talk in person with new friend...
hahha what's with the new friend? hee~

so the class was in the mood for camera whoring.
caught the FC's attention by snapping pics here and there.
after dispersing at FC 1, some of us went FC 2 to continue snappin pics while my dearies waited for me to go for my session with rajeev. so sweet rite they! hehe..
it was as if we're yr 3 students gitu keep taking pics.. haha..
our time will come in no time...
gonna upload the pics as soon as steff sends them to me...
MSN is down God knows why. hrmph.
tmr shall snap more pics, yes steff?

constant craving

2005-03-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

hahahhaa. there. FINALLY.
Alhamdulillah.

thank you dearies for your moral support.
appreciate it lots! =D

met up with bestie after school.
ate @ constant craving since we were both craving for western food.
haha! it was.. not bad lah.
thanks bestie, for walking arnd with me eventho ur tired after work.
*hugs*

aan asked me go simple plan concert with him.
and i turned it down.
STUPID RIGHT!
it's SIMPLE PLAN for goodness' sake!!
i was too shagged lah.
ey bro when wanna go HMV n let me spend your voucher?!

you know what.
i cannot recall the last time i went out with kakak.
oh wait. maybe i can. it was last december.
but that cant be counted.
bcos it wasn't the same already.
nvm i'm sure things will get better.
it will. right kakak?
i miss you very very much. =(

i can't wait to mug over the weekends.
or rather, til tuesday night.
for the love of Binocular Vision.
*puiiiii*

2005-03-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

i feel happy of the late.
some of you might know why...
but as steff darling said, i have to stay on ground.
don't worry lah, i know where i stand.
i'm just very glad you came.
you have no idea how much i appreciate it.

my hair is horrible.
i miss my normal boring hairstyle.

2005-03-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

i feel so angry reading someone's entries.
i mean, come on lah.
if you don't understand OUR kind of people, shut up already!

27march

2005-03-27T13:48:00.000+08:00

today's 27 march.
i never fail to notice 27 march every year.
and when i do i'll go.. ahh.. one more month.
haha.
it felt like yesterday that i celebrated my 17th.
note i said 17th. cos the 18th felt like nothing at all.
had thought of organizing a chalet or bbq, joint celebration for a'an, feeq and me.
and we'll call all our friends down. that'll be a blast uh.
but that is not to be.
with the attachment, don't say chalet lah.. bbq pon impossible.
i'm preparing for the worse for attachment.. make that 11am to 10pm?
guess we'll know about it on tuesday.
if i'm lucky enough that day will be an off day or something.
but then again, i'm always unlucky.
rahhhhh.

=D

2005-03-27T12:32:00.000+08:00

just a random.
recent camera whoring.

realisation

2005-03-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. what's with this new blog you may ask?
well, nothing lah..
just thought i'd leave some negativity of the past behind.
insiknifiken.blogspot had been filled with too much depressing stuff.
i'm starting afresh. :)

the past few days was spent realising how beautiful life really is.
new people i met and old people i already have made me love life even more.
my family, my angel, my sweet loves- nad sam shafa nadz nana ada nissa dayah mai hedz runz izz steff junqi julie yanah weiqi , buddy ikin and the very few guys who understood and accepted, you know who you are...
you all made me who i am today.
a thank you may not be enough, but that's all i can say for now. and of cos, i love you all. :)

was really glad to meet up with my girls + kakak yesterday.
eventho it was only for a short while, it felt good.
we'll catch up again after my papers alrite? :)
i have many plans after my papers n before my attachment ;p

to my psycho and my idiot! : thanks for being wonderfoool study partners yup!! love ya both to bits! we last minute muggers rule lah!